Friday 1st December 2017
Thursday night (last night) I went for a meal with friends. I went for the gluten free menu and I ordered Garlic mushrooms for a starter and Prawn Pil Pil as a main. The garlic mushrooms come and they are in a bowl of CHEESE!!!! I was with 2 girls that didn’t know about what is going on- so I had some of the mushrooms (very few), not to cause a fuss. We had a great night. Then Friday a whole new symptom has presented itself. My face burns all day and night. Is this the cheese? The cheese I ate every weekend for about 4 years?? What is going on? perhaps it is a symptom that would’ve presented itself anyway and it is just coincidence. I don’t know but I am very worried. I think about my sore arm.. its been sore since I went to my GP. I thought it was because he took blood from it but now I’m connecting it to MS. The arm is weaker and I cant push with my fingers. I had been trying to ignore it. Now this. So maybe I do have MS. And even though I thought I was preparing myself -I am upset. I don’t want MS. Maybe I was in denial and in denial that I was in denial. I don’t tell my husband. I don’t know how. I haven’t told him about my arm. I was hoping it would go away. I just want to go to bed and cry. But I can’t. I have a family to look after. I am so down though. How do I pick myself up – MY FACE IS ON FIRE!! We are all in bed by 9:30pm on a Friday night? How pathetic!