- FND is due to a problem with the functioning of the nervous system and thought to be the result of the brain’s inability to send and receive signals properly, rather than disease.
- FND is the second most common reason for a neurological outpatient visit after headache/migraine.
- FND is more common than multiple sclerosis.
- FND symptoms are real
- FND can cause impairment in quality of life that is similar to other neurological conditions such as Parkinson’s disease or Epilepsy
Taken from FNDHope.org
I have been trying to get my head around FND and honestly- I can’t. Is it a mental health problem? Is this my anxiety and worry manifesting itself physically? I have no idea.
I am assuming it is all to do with my anxiety. I think of myself as a positive person- I try to get people to look on the ‘bright side’, I try to cheer people up and keep them positive. But in my head I am in a constant state of worry- about everything. For example- My parents are over in England at the minute visiting my brother. They took the boat and then drove to his house. I was on high alert until I heard they arrived safely- I had imagined many scenario’s that did not end well for them. The weather was bad so maybe they came off the road, maybe a lorry driver fell asleep on the motorway while driving and crashed into them, maybe they fell asleep at the wheel, maybe a lorry had a blowout- the list is endless. As the day went on, I kept checking the time and getting more stressed, I eventually asked had they arrived safe- thankfully they had- but no-one told me! They were all relaxed having a great time whereas I was freaking out and wondering how to cover funeral costs!
I guess that ‘energy’ has to go somewhere.
I don’t send apples to the childminder for my children in case they choke on them. Then I found out she gives them apples anyway so I go to work and worry that the apple will get them!!
I’m driving and I worry, I lie in bed, I worry, I try relax in the bath and I worry. My imagination runs away with me.
Yesterday the girls and I were in the car and we were having THE best time, singing Let it go(Alex’s choice) and Mika(Eabha’s choice) the same 2 songs over and over, we were all singing (using that word loosely) at the top of voices- then I thought- well if the apocalypse comes now at least we are together. That was my ‘Happy’ thought.
This ‘anxiety’ must now be causing these ‘mysterious’ symptoms. Looking on http://www.FNDHope.org it seems anti-depressants are often prescribed (So it is a mental health thing?) I don’t want to be put on an anti-depressant. So I gotta fix this myself.